do not read journal entries when i am borderline emo.

Dulce is being so annoying right now. Seriously so fucking annoying. No more electronic monitoring for me and what am I doing.....on LJ. Hola!

Gabe n I are kaputz. Oww. He says that when I am around he feels like he can't function because he is constantly fretting about me, what I am doing, thinking, feeling etc. Oh yea, not to forget that he said I made him miserable. =( So whatever on that subject.

This morning I locked the keys in the car with the engine running. UGH! <333 roadside assistance. I need to get an oil change.....then try to keep my mind occupied from this bullshit.
 

phillip emailed me back the email address i couldn't remember. really did me no good because no one had sent anything worth reading. 30% off at saks? i am so there. there is a certain betsey j purse that i am soooo dying for.

ruben is like seriously the coolest. he's always there for me and i know he always will b...i hope. i spent most of thbe afternoon w pilli. misery loves company for the most part.

tomorrow i have so much shit to do. i need to cut out my random cussing. so not lady like.

nothing really else relevant to say....at all. sort of. but nothing worth repeating....you know??

 

he is such a good pretender. and i am such a gullible fool.

i never get how people can accuse me of being so devoid of emotions. i'm a walking sentiment.

 

dulce is getting so much older and i love kids at her age. no naive. so refreshing.

gabe and i are good for the most part.

mariano and i are on somewhat speaking terms i guess. myspace messaging i believe should count.

but really the most important thing to update on is that the cps case is finally closed. their was so much dragging going on. almost 8 months and not really doing anything. so we got a new case worker and she seemed pretty diligent on getting this case done with asap. due to my personal health i couldn't meet up w/ her. my mother got a call the other week which said that the caseworker verifired the info that i had given her and that the drug test i took back in december came out negative and that was that. case closed.

i mentioned this to mariano and it didn't even merit a response. i wonder if he still feels bad for what he did.

i am going to try this. i have not done this is a really long time. free type. i haven't even done a free write either. i don't think that i am supposed to be deleting things though. i first started doing this in middle school because during our journal time in english we had to write. i remember her saying if you don't have anything to write just write down i don't know what to write. the whole point was a consistent flow. i stopped to think. that sucks. game over. i am such a loser. like in bingo. gabe n i go ....gabe interuppted me. so that ruins this all. oh yea.....

gabe ruined christmas. personal joke.

tis all.

/fin

I have had no contact with mariano in months. but on christmas day he sends me a myspace message wishes us and "our daughter" a good day and he hopes that he and i could be better friends in the year to come.


whatev.

gabe and i did the island thing. quite nice. relaxing for me....he had his sessions to go to. i wish it was hotter so i could have gotten a proper tan.

i bought confessions of a shopaholic while i was there....finished it in about a days time and now i'm ready for the rest of the series. it a fun and very easy read. i like books like that at times. either way, i figure, i do have a couple of months to fill before chuck p. book comes out....in march i think.

dulce has a new bed. she had been sleeping in her play pen for the most part if not on my moms bed squeezed between my parents. we got her a nice cherry stained wooden toddler bed. we outfitted it with tinker bell covers and she enjoys it. buuuut, we find he on the floor sometimes at night.....or in the hall way where she has brought her blanket and made herself a new  "bed".

there's even been a couple of nights where my mom has woken up to her peering eyes trying to get on her bed. my moms bed is pretty tall. you need a little jump to get on....or if you are in the latter years a step stool. dulce needs a little combo of both.

G left for a funeral earlier and I'm camped in until the ride subsides....even if just a little.

I don't get to sleep w/ my baby often....I love it when we do. Yesterday we go into my room.......a wonderland for her! She loves playing with all those clothes and my accessory box full of shiny things =) I crash out and eventually she stops playing with the chaos on my bed and sleeps butt up.

Birthday party yesterday for a pair of sisters a yr apart with the same birthday. Dora theme. Which leaves me still undecisive on Dulce's theme. What are you fellow LJ moms doing/did?

Teh life is so mundane these days. Not much at all really to say. I think I'll call A today. Been such a long time since I've seen her. But I'm sure she will bring to my attention the weight spike. ugh . ugh. ugh.

G is cool. Although he seems to have his issues with me.....I think that's the general consensus of every healthy human interaction. It just keeps on pouring.

I got a new book to read. E....I am trying to upkeep that friendship but never been my niche. Suite....I was trying to remember that wrd yesterday.

We played an over an hr long session of the word game with G coming out as the victor. Stupid X.

random thoughts.

i'm on the phone w/ pan am.

dulce is asleep and i'm debating on where to take her for lunch.

i'm thinking the woodlands. they have this neat smores thing for desert. they bring out a fire candle thing w/ marshmallow?? on sticks and a hershey bar.

either that or denny's. can't beat the kids eat free deal. 

mom is in the hospital. kidney stones. 

gabe and i are cool. happy. love. we got matching tattoos yesterday. crazy. little orange hearts on our inner lip. i think he regrets it. but ha! nothing he can do abt it now.

went to austin w/ him the other weekend to watch batman at the imax. fun times.

tis all.

i've never been  this happy!!!

i am so in love w/ this man.

unerving at time.

cset la vie.

This is my first update from la casa de gabe.

....really no more words at this time.

Maybe I can come up with something

No, empty mind.

Party Monster time.

<3 the question club